Disappointment

SAD...DISAPPOINTED...
disappointed with myself...with my results... hard effort that I've put in doesn't seem to work...
This is the first time..Its the worst results that I have ever obtained...
I just could not accept it...
I feel lost...
Nobody could ever understand what I feel...
I feel guilty for not performing well in this semester...
I feel so bad inside...kept questioning myself..am I able to cope in my studies?am I able to face the challenges ahead in the future?
I'm scared...terrified..lack of confidence to go through my life...
This time it really hit me...I know how it feels when you don't do well in exams...



sad..disappointment...unexpected BAD results...

Days in Melbourne Day 1&2

Finally,finished my second year first sem final exam.I hope i did ok.Finished the last paper on Wed,on that night itself,flew to Melbourne for vacation.The flight was ok..7 hours in the plane..but, I didn't get any sleep.Watched The Perfect Getaway in the plane.The food was urgghh..yucksss...coz it was fish and mee.Reached Melbourne at 8.10am local time which was around 6am in Malaysia.I was exhausted yet excited.Uncle Bill and mum came and picked me up from the airport and headed back to his house.Uncle's house is so beautiful,the whole house is renovated with clear glasses.Reached the house and put my things in her daughter's house which is located just beside his house.After that, we went to a chinese restaurant and have lunch.The food was nice...had abalone,oysters,crab,crocodile meat and roasted chicken.My stomach was bloated.After lunch, we went to Chadstone which is one of the biggest shopping mall.Walk walk here and there..nothing can be bought as it is too expensive if we convert it to Malaysian Ringgit.However,we bought chocs and mum bought a D&G shades for herself.She asked me if I want one but I said no coz I seldom wear it..but kinda regret now why I rejected her offer?!!There were lots of nice dresses but it was too expensive and not worth it..T.T

After shopping,went back home and prepared for dinner with Auntie Judith...lasagne prepared by Auntie Judith and steak by Elizabeth which is her daughter and my cousin.Ate a lot again...so so full..Chit chatted for the rest of the night with a bunch of adult and went back to Eliz's hse and slept..I was extremely tired.

On the second day which its today,mum and the other aunties went to jog at the park behind the house early in the morning. Unfortunately,I didn't follow coz i was super duper tired.After that, mum woke me up and we went to a place called Mount Waverley to buy some food and groceries for tonight's bbq dinner.Had a simple lunch then we head to The Glenn shopping mall.It is a rather small mall compared to Chadstone.I had Mcd ice cream there...it was awesome...nicer than Malaysia's..I think its because of the milk they use to produce the ice cream..so creamy and rich..sounds so fat!!!but indeed, it is fattenning.Mum bought earrings for herself ..as for me,I didn't get anything. Eliz came and fetch us back to the house and prepared dinner.Awesome and weird food which are kangaroo meat which I'm not daring enough to eat,the sausages which are really nice,potato salad,roasted chicken,mushrooms,asparagus and salad.Then,had some fruits such as cherries,mango,watermelon.After that,went back to next door to try to online and talk to my dear,however,the line here was very poor as I was far away from the modem..I can log in to webpages but can't chat...arggghh!!!I need to go to bed after finish typing this blog coz tomorrow we are going to Victoria market in the city at 6.30 in the morning.And also the wedding of my cousin Elizabeth will be held tomorrow at 6pm at some hall at the city centre.So,its gonna be another busy day..

Dear, will keep you updated for the rest of the days..miss you a lot here..

Miss you dear..see you soon in 2 weeks time..

xoxo Mel.

My 20th birthday...

Basically, my birthday falls on every 12th of August..
Well, it's another year of getting old...
This time is a step in the circle of 20 years...
Argghh..thinking of it made me felt so so old...time really flies...
Well, during 12 midnight, my housemates gave me a surprise with a cake...I was totally shocked..unexpected!!!Then,the exact day, early in the morning, I received a birthday card from a friend...and after a few hours, I got a call from a cake house saying that they wanted to deliver cupcakes for me..I was shocked as I did not order any cupcakes..and I thought it was my bunch of friends giving me surprises..but when i went to uni and asked them,it was not them..After that, I thought it was my bf...but it wasn't him...hmm..Finally, I knew who gave me the cupcakes..it was the same guy that send me the birthday card...Well,thanks...hehe..
This birthday was full of surprises...it was great!!~

As the night finally approached, my beloved friends and I went to 1U to have a dinner in Chillis...
Met up with him then off we went to the restaurant...It was full house.. we are required to wait for a while..
After 15 min, there was a place for us...we sat down and ordered what we want to fill our hungry stomach...
After dinner, cupcakes were served.. a total of 25 cupcakes..and there were only six of us..we ate 1 each..the rest of them were given to the waiters there as we couldn't finish it..
So, this was my awesome birthday accompanied by the ones that are special and precious to me.
Love them till bits..

Pictures were captured...enjoy^^During 12 midnight...^^



With Nadia and Grace(housemate)





Us on the way there...

Besties..Jacy and Shao Yen...



My precious one~♥


Everybody's yummy food...





uiseh~gentlemen...






Nice decorated cupcakes~~






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Ohh...finally..it took me 3 days to upload these pics...
The line here is so slow...gosh~teruknya~~
Anyways..I would like to thank my friends for celebrating with me..treasure our friendship♥
and also my precious one~~cherish the love and moments that we share♥

"It's All Coming Back To Me Now"

There were nights when the wind was so cold
That my body froze in bed
If I just listened to it
Right outside the window

There were days when the sun was so cruel
That all the tears turned to dust
And I just knew my eyes were
Drying up forever

I finished crying in the instant that you left
And I can't remember where or when or how
And I banished every memory you and I had ever made

But when you touch me like this
And you hold me like that
I just have to admit
That it's all coming back to me
When I touch you like this
And I hold you like that
It's so hard to believe but
It's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things I'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than any laws allow
Baby Baby

If I kiss you like this
And if you whisper like that
It was lost long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you want me like this
And if you need me like that
It was dead long ago
But it's all coming back to me
It's so hard to resist
And it's all coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now
But it's all coming back

There were those empty threats and hollow lies
And whenever you tried to hurt me
I just hurt you even worse
And so much deeper

There were hours that just went on for days
When alone at last we'd count up all the chances
That were lost to us forever

But you were history with the slamming of the door
And I made myself so strong again somehow
And I never wasted any of my time on you since then

But if I touch you like this
And if you kiss me like that
It was so long ago
But it's all coming back to me
If you touch me like this
And if I kiss you like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
(It's all coming back, it's all coming back to me now)

There were moments of gold
And there were flashes of light
There were things we'd never do again
But then they'd always seemed right
There were nights of endless pleasure
It was more than all your laws allow
Baby, Baby, Baby

When you touch me like this
And when you hold me like that
It was gone with the wind
But it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
Then we see what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall
But it's all coming back to me now

If you forgive me all this
If I forgive you all that
We forgive and forget
And it's all coming back to me
When you see me like this
And when I see you like that
We see just what we want to see
All coming back to me
The flesh and the fantasies
All coming back to me
I can barely recall but it's all coming back to me now

(It's all coming back to me now)
And when you kiss me like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And when I touch you like that
(It's all coming back to me now)
If you do it like this
(It's all coming back to me now)
And if we. . .

*Late update* Anna's birthday and outing with friends..

12/7

Anna's birthday
at Upperstar,Damai...
Happy Sweet 20th Birthday Anna~~~~
Lazy to write more...
Just got the pichass from my friend..
Let the pichass do the talking~


















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14/7

Went to Little Italy to have dinner then to @mosphere~

Back in KL again~

I'm back in Sunway again~
Kinda miss home and my brothers...
Felt so so quiet when i was back in my small little room here...
This week no tutorials only lecture...
So,still can fool and play around...hehe..
This sem will be definitely a tough sem...
Based on the past years performance,the subjects that I've enrolled pointed out 50% failure rates according to my lecturers...ARRRGGGHHH!!!
Week 4-Subject:Company Reporting need to hand in Assignment 1...on my birthday somemore~Sigh...sigh...sigh...
Gonna work hard!!!


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Oh ya...went for fine dining in Sutera Harbour,KK...
With Mummy and Aunt Florence...
That night the dinner was RM400 plus for three of us...
So expensive...shocked me...

Pichasss...































Mummy..miss u so much~~

When I just landed in the airport,I felt like going home already...
Sobzzzz T.T

Wonderful night with IS friends..

On Saturday night, Farah came and picked me up to have a gathering dinner with IS friends at Waterfront, Toscani's restaurant...they served western food there...The food there was really AWFUL,EXPENSIVE and THE PORTION OF A PLATE OF DISH WAS SO SMALL!!It was quite a disappointed one but the gathering was fun..hehe...After the dinner,Farah,Douglas,Daryl,Ashley and I went to Coffee Bean for second round...ate Oreo Cheesecake...arggghhh..so fattening but it was just so irresistable!!!plus Shirley told me that I put on weight ...aikssss!!!need to start dieting!!!

As for today, went to church with family as usual...then to Wisma Merdeka with my mummy...both of us got new clothes...hehe...mummy really spoil me...after that,went home and sleep coz last nite talked on the phone from 12am till 2.30am then woke up at 6.30am to get ready for church...then dinner at VIP Restaurant with Uncle James's family and Popo...Un.James specially spend us eat nice food tonight coz I just came back from West Malaysia...Thank you so much Uncle!!You really siak me ooooo....hehe...After dinner,went to yam cha with friends at Yoyo,Damai...end of today...


Pichassssssssss.......